Saturday, October 23, 2010

Holy Update Batman!

So as you all know, I like to do things my own way. I mean why would I want to do things just like everyone else right.

A year ago (in a month, Turkey Trot) I did my very first 5k. Of course I did no training, nor did I actually "run" it. I now have 4 5k's under my belt, and still have yet to actually run one.

So with Turkey is a month away, and I've decided I want to try and run it. Well at least be able to run maybe 2/3. (Honestly I would be happy with myself if I ran half of it... Yes I know, that's only a mile and a half!)

So Thursday night I started Week 1 Day 1 of Couch to 5k! Of course I had to download the C25k app on my iPhone, this ADD girl can't be trusted with a piece of paper..... and remember how long I am suppose to run/walk and when. Let me tell you, Thursday night whipped my ass. Beyond whipped it. There were many times in my head I was debating with myself on just saying "FUCK it" but I did it! (Yes call me a pussy, W1D1 kicked my bootay!)

Yesterday my cousin had asked me to watch her 2 kids while her and her husband where in a wedding. Her kiddos are 3 years old and 6 months! My parents have both been saying the want grandbabies! So of course I said I'd watch them. (So my parents can realize, being grandparents aren't as easy as they may think! And recently that husband of mine has been telling me we should have a baby!) Little man and I went trunk or treating while the little baby girl stayed with my parents. So when I got home I threw in a movie for the little man, and took over the little baby girl. My cousin had warned me she was teething. Well, she had been such a great baby I didn't think she was hurting, nor did it dawn on me that she might need some mortoin. Well my journey of baby duty started at a lovely 10:30, only an hour that she was asleep. Then for the 5 hours, in 30 minute intervals she was up! Around 1 am, I realize that her teeth hurt, because when I held the binkie in she would stop crying. So I gave her some motorin and thought I was solid, sleep here I come. WRONG-O! 30 minutes later, she's up again! Now it's gas pains, and she's farting up a storm on me! So around 2 I give her gas drops, only to be woke up again at 3 am to her giggling, smiling and wanting to play!!! Finally I had to reach the point of now, just giving the binkie and letting herself cry to sleep! Needless to say, I got to bed about 3:15. Oh I forgot to mention, Julia and I had volunteered for a race this morning and I had to meet Julia in 3 hours. UGH.

Of course, any sight of what I thought I had of baby fever. . . Is long beyond long gone! That lovely husband of mine told me that after last night he doesn't know if he ever wants kids! Haha! I had been trying to tell him the little interaction with babies isn't what I would call being around babies. Also, my mom looked at me and said "I might have a change in mind on grandbabies!" Haha!

After a whopping 2 hours of sleep, I headed out to our race. Thank goodness Julia nor the racers cared what I looked like! I came home, to try and take nap. Nope Dad said he wanted to take us to Lunch. After lunch, I got a lovely short cat nap of an hour. Not what I really wanted. Oh well. Then I remembered today was Saturday, I needed to do W1D2 of C25k. Yup, I debated long and hard with myself again. I mean, did I really want to try and force myself to train on 3 hours of sleep? Not only a lack of sleep, but I felt like death after day 1 on Thursday. Was I really wanting to feel even more like crap? So after an hour of seeding POMs for work, I decided. . . I need to get outside and just do it. I'm not going to be able to become the "runner" I want to if I just make excuses. I am super stoked to report W1D2 was a success. I was able to complete, and I didn't feel like a walking zombie. After tonight, I am excited for Monday to train again!

I might actually become a runner. . .  like a for real runner.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Terrific Thursday. . .

I honestly don't know how terrific it is, but I do know that yesterday thanks to Miss Julia.... My plump (ya'll get mad when I call myself fat!) ass went to Yoga. All went well, I was honestly surprised I didn't make myself look the uber fool I thought I would. Ohhh I forgot to add, that traffic wasn't as bad as I thought so I made a pit stop to PEACHWAVE!
Lookie there! I also went healthy on my froyo! Only Tart and Strawberry!
Alright, except a slue of BOBA's! Who can give me NI for Boba?

Luckily after Yoga, it finally clicked with me. My muscles that I haven't used were starting to get sore. I honestly was wanting to stay completely OP. I mean really was Sheridan's Wedding Cake Concrete me ruining all the success I've already had? I mean, the last few weeks yeah I've said I'm going to stay OP. But ummm to say the least, that hasn't happened!

Well so today, I'm completely OP! I've got my etools and my 3 month journal! I only have like 30 pounds to go. I can do this, easy peasy!

Now, how to get this shoulder blade soreness to leave, it feels weird!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Little over a year ago

So a year and 2 months ago, I met this girl on the weight watcher board... Via the internet! *scary voice* I came home, bragging to Kyle how I made a new friend from the weight watcher boards and she lives in Overland Park TOO! Needless to say, Kyle (being the one that comes from a family of retired cops, and wants to become a cop) completely flipped shit on my ass. I had told him I was going to meet her in corporate woods. ( A woodsie area that was by my work that had a trail) He proceeded to tell me she was going to kill me, cut me into pieces and throw me in a freezer. (I need to stop allowing him to watch Criminal Minds) Being the person I am, I took on the challenge of being cut up and thrown in the freezer! I also went to meet my new "friend" and as that husband of mine had just told me I was going to die,  I didn't even take MACE. Lord.

If anyone would of told me I would of met a person that I would then consider my best friend, you could of fooled me! I arrive to the trail to find Julia!!! For only knowing someone for over a year, I can tell anything and everything and she was always there to either pick me up off the ground, or laugh with me! To the fact that I was upset at myself, 9 months earlier I had gotten engaged. I was broken hearted I had already asked all my bridesmaids to be in the wedding. Of course I had already talked with her about being my awesome greeter for the wedding!

Julia, she is that one person in life that I honestly can't say no to. Roughly 3 months after meeting,  I get a text from Julia asking me to register for the Turkey Trot 5k. So, being the person that only runs when my life is in danger. . . Of course I said yes (it was Julia) and signed up... 2 weeks before the race with NO training. Although I drung my ass to the race. Although I maybe ran 1/3 of the race. I did it, and from then on I got more texts asking me to join more races. I still have yet to completely run a 5k...

Although, after a couple of races together Julia tells me she's wanting to step it up to half marathons, and possibly full marathons. I looked *with crazy eyes* at her and word for word said "I will sign up for whatever 5k's you want me to, I will not run halfs or fulls. But I will ALWAYS support you and be there for you at the finish!" So Races after races, freezing what of boobs I have left, or almost dying in 100+ heat index. She stepped up the racing!

Throughout my wedding drama, I knew I could always call Julia and bitch, cry, or ask to go eat junk food with me. It wasn't until a week and a half before my wedding. I had decided. I needed to change my bridesmaids. I did kick out a bridesmaid, and was able to call Julia and say "So, I've wanted to do this for awhile....... Will you be my bridesmaid and share my wedding with me!"

That crazy Julia had finalized her first marathon, 10-16-10! So of course I would be there, I mean I wouldn't miss it for the world. I won't miss her marathon, or whenever she has kiddos! So this time I decided I would volunteer, this is the biggest race in town!

Well, (incase you didn't know.... RETAAARD) today is 10-16-10! So after my meetings, being told how to stop cars from running over runners. Also being the white girl in the "hood" part of the race. I took on the challenge of being a baller volunteer! I wanted to make sure I was towards the end of the course, so that Julia would know I'm here and I was going to cheer her on. (Even if she was the very last person that the police car was trailing behind) I was at mile point between 20-21. Yes an old lady did try to run over me and 5 runners. (yes, she got a ticket.) All and all was well! Although, of course when Julia came trotting passed me, some douche tried to get on the course so I only got to wave :-(

Once the end of the racers came past my point, I hopped in the car dealing with blocked roads trying to make it to the finish line. I mean, I had always promised I would be at the finish line once she crossed! Hauling ass, freaking running up steps and to the finish line to make sure I saw her! (yeah, I know running, and let alone up steps I'm a fool) I wiggle my way so I can make sure I can get a picture of the finish line when she crosses! Lucky for me I could see her husband, Mom, and sister before the finish line, so when I saw them getting all excited I made sure the iphone was ready!! She did it!!! In 5 hours and 48 minutes! Call me one proud friend!!!  Although, you all might find me kicking her ass and putting her in a headlock. She keeps telling me she's not happy with how the marathon went!!! She's a baller, she finished a MARATHON!!! (and she didn't shit herself! hahaha sorry julia I had to put that in for you to laugh)

Yes you can call me one proud friend!! (and even after a year, she still hasn't killed me and put me in the freezer!!)

Our Very first Turkey Trot!!

Santa 5k, of course I'll freeze my tits off for you! 

Why Yes Julia, of course I'll fill in for Meagan! 
Why wouldn't I want to run in 100+ heat index.
Only for you! 

I would of missed not have you stand at the alter with me on my wedding day! 

Of course I'm beyond proud of you! 

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

9 years already?!

Last night I got a whopping 3 hours of sleep. I must have a sinus infection brewing. I'm in pain and I have yet to figure out how any more snot could possibly come out of my nose. I certainly didn't get new nose in a bottle when I bought all my skin care! Note to self; when you go to bed with a stuff nose, don't take the cheap toilet paper. Go for the charmin ultra. Although I felt like death, I stopped at the Walgreens to get some meds. Went into the office and just felt horrid. I came home worked half a day from home. I swear the sinus meds I got are shitty!

So I opened my MacBook, which I haven't done all day. I went to click safari, I saw that today was October 12. October 12, 2001 was the most devastating day of my life. Nine years ago today, I lost the one person I loved more then myself. My beloved Grandma Bonnie. She was everything to me! Literally EVERYTHING. There are many kids out there that don't have relationships with their grandparents, it breaks my heart. 

August 26, my first day of my Sophomore year. I actually rode the bus my sophomore year. I come walking down the street to see both Mom and Dad sitting on the front porch. My family never hangs out on the front porch. I walk through the yard to my mom in tears. she told me to get in the car and we are going to the hospital. While in the car, Mom tells me that Gandma has went to the doctors and she was rushed to the hospital. After hours of testing, the doctor came out to tell us that my Grandma had stage 4 Ovarian Cancer.

The next day, she went into surgery. Not only did she have a watermelon size cyst (my grandma had kept gaining weight and didn't understand) they said that it had looked like as if the cancer was bird seed and someone just threw it. It was everywhere. They said that they will try a experimental treatment to try and kill it all. After weeks of ICU, more weeks in regular hospital room, and 2 days at home. Grandma's body wasn't responding the treatment. October 11, 2010; I had went to the haunted house, before I had left I was told Grandma was doing better and to go ahead and go. Mom and Dad would call me if anything happened with Grandma. And the doctor had told us she had 6 weeks till the cancer completely takes over her body. 

I head off to school Friday morning, as I was walking to my second hour. I had a weird feeling in my stomach. I search and search through my backpack to see where my cell phone was. Go figure, I had left my cell phone at home. Off to my third hour, the minute the bell rings I am buzzed out of class. They told me to get to the front desk as soon as possible. I run down to the office and the tears were starting. I arrive, I see my cousin pull up, I run to her call. She informs me that Grandma had went into "coma" stage, and the nurses said she would most likely go today. We head out to State line, as we get off on the ramp Sissy's cell phone rings. She answers, and was crying more screaming NO. We get to the parking lot, running upstair to her room. Grandma was gone. That one person that meant everything to me. The one I always viewed as my mother.
9 years ago today, my world was turned upside down. I was completely empty. Why would God take such a wonderful lady. And leave all the nasty old people I dealt with day in and day out at Walgreens. This is also when I ate all my feelings. I am a emotinal eater. I was at the point where I didn't understand why the took Grandma with out me. 9 years ago I was 165, happy with my weight. Then I meant the horrid darkness that I suffered for years.

I can't say I'm completely over Grandma's death, I am better then I was even 5 years ago. I can talk about it. Although I still feel extremely guilty that I went out to the haunted house the day before, and I had left my cell phone at home. Maybe Sissy and I could of been there earlier and we could of said goodbye. Although, thinking about everything that has happened in the last 9 years there have been many positives. 9 Years ago, my mother and I didn't have a relationship. I have come around, Mom and I are closer then we've ever been my whole life.  I know that Grandma had a helping hand in my having my very first job at Walgreens!, (Growing up I always said I wanted to work at Walgreens, I loved all the random stuff they had!) drove my wonderful lime green beetle!, (Also, ever since I was a little kids. I always wanted a green bug!) Meeting Kyle, having someone again fill a little bit of the hole that was still missing!, lastly I know my wedding wouldn't have been as amazing as it was if it wasn't for her! Not to mention, 2 hours before our outdoor picture it was down right raining cats and dogs. I was freaking out! Go figure a bride freaking out on her wedding day!

I Love You Grandma!
You will never be forgotten. 

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

I promise.

I will be a good poster.

Right now watching Ironman 2.

Will continue later

Monday, October 4, 2010

By Request . . .

So Miss Joann requested a daily menu from me, boy did she luck out since I am now actually tracking. Which we all know is a ginormous step for me!

So, this weekend. I'm finding out I pretty much fail at weekends. I did really good until ummm 9 o'clock saturday. We went out for a friends birthday, I ended up having loaded nacho's after Kyle and I had already ate sushi for dinner and I had used all my points!

So this morning I went to the gym and burned 2 points at 6 am!

Total daily points: 26

Breakfast: 9am
- Green Mountain Pumpkin Spice Coffee - 0
- 1 TBL Coffeemate creamer - 0
- 2 pieces of Sara Lee Whole Wheat Honey Wheat bread - 1
- 3 egg whites with jalapeno's cut up in it -1
- 1 slice of Kraft 2% sharp cheddar cheese - 1
- 1 cup of Dole Frozen cut fruit (it was bananas, peaches and strawberries! for a smoothie!!) - 1
- 1 cup of water (for my smoothie)
- 1 splenda packet (for my smoothie)

Points used: 4
Points left: 22

Snack: 11am
I some how wasn't HUNGRY to need a snack.
- 1 Atomic Fireball - 0 (1) (Helps me get water down!! I tracked 3 fireballs for 1 point)

Points used: 5
Points left: 21

*Down 32oz of water *

Lunch: 12:45pm
- Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash Ravioli - 5
- 6 oz sweet potato - 3

Points used: 8
Points left: 13

- Choban Pomegranate Greek yogurt -3

*Down 52 oz. of water*

Points used: 3
Points left: 10

- 4 oz Steak - 5
- asparagus - 0
- caesar salad -3
- 1 pumpkin cookie - 2

*Down 64 oz. of water*

Points used: 10
Points left: 0


Friday, October 1, 2010

I need help

So my little cousin gave me a coupon for $5 of TOMS, of course I can't let it go to waste and expire.

But as you all know, I'm in love with TOMS. And yes I wear them nearly daily, now if they had Tennis shoes for me to work out in.... I would be in TOMS 24/7

So which should I pick. . .

These adorable wedges!

Or these adorable cords. . .